The shock method part 1

I have never been one of those people who do things half-heartedly. If I am 'into' something - I am INTO it full blast. This goes for every aspect of my life, from musical preferences, personal relationships, food fads - and Buddhism. I am more the type that will read a helpful book thoroughly in every given moment, rather than skip thru briefly and snatch out a few helpful hints. I am more of the live it for real type, than the read it, think about it and try to do a little bit of it type.

Regular readers will already know that I follow both Thai Dhutanga and Tibetan Vajrayana teachings within my life, as well as reading of many others. I had been investigating the reason why I was so involved in two different styles, along with my personal role much lately - and recently discovered my aspiration from a previous life, which explained to me partially why I needed both these styles.

In the middle of February, I had one of those difficult traumatic times of life - where I received a major league shock, followed by a collapse of many areas of my life that I held dear to me within just a couple of days. Whilst this knocked me into a blank sadness for a few days, it additionally gave me new ground for learning. (I believe that this is because I use my entire life to learn from, rather than just put into practice a few aspects of Buddhism, as many modern Buddhists of the Western World seem to do.)