Right mindedness

I have been struggling for a few weeks to try to ascertain the correct citta level. If mind-created thought, feeling, etc is faulty and abandonable… what was left seemed to be knowing wisdom and natural is-ness.

This still presented me with problems however. I can easily accept that mind-created levels are wrong - but it is hard to determine the exactness of what is left.

After some struggling, I have come to the conclusion that natural is-ness is just as cruel and harmful as mind-createdness. Mother nature is not pleased with humanity, and to side with nature and wipe clean the man-made mind levels leaves one still struggling to cope with suffering and unsatisfactoriness.

Nature wants to wipe out the blemishes of which humanity appears to be one such problem and it is obviously not satisfactory to wipe oneself and own kind out. Therefore there has to be connection to other attributes of 'down there' in the deeper levels of the citta that are neither mind-created nor nature arisen. Other than inner divinity, I have yet to discover anything else at that depth within myself. But it is so linked to naturalness, that it is difficult to distinguish between the two.

However, I must put myself to this task - because I do not want to clean up the wrong levels only to be administered by more wrongness! Distinguishing between natural and right/positive/progressive and natural and wrong/negative/harmful is clearly my next task.