BUDDHIST PRACTICE: My need - why I can find no peace in lay-life

I need to devote most/all my life to Buddhist practice - but I cannot do so from lay-life. I need to earn income sufficient to support myself and I need to do so from within my own home.

I still have not found a solution to a form of work that I can do to provide $300-$400PW, that takes 10-30 hours of my week, and can be done at any time on any day. Freelance writing, photography and design provides some income, but not enough. Other options do not seem to be available, take too long to start up, need money to begin, are wrong practices, do not feel naturally right for me, or need certification prior to commencement.

There seems to be no way I can live - only keep trying with my Buddhist practice focused freelancing lifestyle and hope society drops its dictations before I scream.

When I became a Buddhist, rather than a reader that agreed with and related to Buddhist books, I made many changes in my life. Other things I already lived, that Buddhism backed up as being right.

I began to develop understanding of why I lived the way I do. The more I practiced Buddhism, the more I felt the need to walk away from a 9-5, reject alternatives that could provide more money but less rightness, and stay right rather than temporarily live wrong. I needed to head towards vegetarianism, not because I wanted to be nice or good, but because I simply could not bear not to eat creatures that were more natural than humanity.

I already lived/worked from home - but without sufficient income. I already recognized nature rather than man-made law as being correct. I already chose to follow the natural run of a day than live a 9-5 lifestyle. I already chose to be a housewife/mother rather than a career-loving, wealth-seeking feminist.

I am content to persevere with freelancing, accepting money when money comes, and waiting for it when it does not. I am not content to work a 9-5, with regular income for a wrong life.