So much to learn… 1

One of the difficulties with practicing Buddhism is that there are so many different things to learn. It is not so much the amount as the variables that cause the difficulty. I have no problem with sitting down and reading for several hours, and then contemplating what I have read for several more prior to putting m findings into poetic word and/or action; however, it becomes very difficult when there are so many different avenues to explore.

Just when I feel that I have understood and experienced as much as I am currently able to on one line, I investigate a second and the first fades. With so many different things to consider, I wonder if I will ever manage to hold ground and learn anything without the need to constantly relearn it all over again.

For an example, one day I might have read about the subject of emptiness, then spent a few hours thinking it through internally, slept on it, meditated on it, and have received some understanding and experience. A week later, I am reading about Nirvana, the four noble truths, the Buddha's lifestyle, or some other topic. I will then be investigating this subject, and the previous one will have vanished from comprehension.