Buddhist Theory: How helpful! 2.

My next concern came when I recognized that I had made major progress. I had stopped getting furious at others for filling my life with stuff I did not want, society for being unfair and making wrongful decisions that affected me, and friends for failing me - even if I tried 99-100%. I began to learn to deal with the rubbish in my life, because if it truly came from my own past deeds, then it was not fair of me to blame others.

I also learned to stop being angry, hateful, and impatient. I am still working on the minor pieces, but the strongest of these negative emotions no longer dwell in me.
However, I then began to wonder…

Yes, I felt much better about myself, my path through life, and my personal spiritual progress. Not feeling the horrid sensations of anger, rage, fury and hatred seething within, made me feel much calmer and I easily filled up on love and compassion, naturally aimed at birds, bugs, and people too. I knew that if I had stuffed up somewhere in my past, I could not blame others for my being in a mess now. I also accepted that I could learn very much from Buddhism and reading from both Thai Dhutanga and Tibetan Vajrayana sources seemed the perfect balance for my brains.

But…

Here was I, enthusiastically working on improving myself rapidly and dramatically - amidst a world filled with people who were not bothering to do anything at all to improve themselves or their situation. I have some friends who are - and I am truly grateful to them for existing! If I were totally alone, I would feel rather strange. However, I look at how many people on the planet are seething with hatred, anger, and these major league problems and this leads me to wonder if there will ever be a time when our planet recovers from the human population.

So many people do not even know that they could fix themselves - let alone that doing so would eventually lead to a much nicer place to live for us all. So many people do not even care, taking these rabid ragings as a part of everyday life. They expect to be angry and hateful and impatient - because that is life as we all know it…