Buddhist practice: disappointment

For the second time in 4 weeks, I had difficulty getting online due to ISP connection problems recently.

Once, this would have made me extremely grumpy, possibly even frantically angry and/or panic at my inability to send my completed work to its destination and collect some new tasks to earn from.

I have now managed to prevent anger from arising - and hopefully this is a permanent result - but I have yet to remove the minor problems such as annoyance and disappointment.

On this occasion, I was successful in banishing frustration and annoyance - but still failed to prevent disappointment and mild concern.

The mild concern is due to having a set amount of work/income required per week and falling an hour behind the essential ratio - but I can catch up next week. I can therefore logically prove there is no need to experience mild concern and remove it.

The disappointment stems from the fact that I regularly enjoy my Friday internet sessions, as once my work and have-to's have been completed, I can have fun socializing and playing games, and also networking/chatting with loved ones, whilst playing music from a favorite band.

I can view this as a temporary problem, an inconvenience that is a part of life, or a karmic result that has to be lived through - but I cannot (yet) prevent the feeling of disappointment from taking hold.

One day, I hope to have the strength to do this - and work until I can become totally free of disappointment. I KNOW the logic required, but have yet to ACT and EXPERIENCE release from disappointment. I UNDERSTAND what I need to know, but I have yet to put it into action…

Once again, I can see that Buddhism will solve this problem, but have yet to work on actually solving it and succeeding.