In continuum

Just one week later, further occurrences arose. A deeper shock removed the aspiration from me, leaving me with nothing to continue for. When you have put everything you have and are into something that you know from deep down within is right for you, and that is then denied - you can only reassess the options.

But when no other option will suffice, and the only right option is denied to you, you have to reassess yet again. For me, I have decided to live out the aspiration anyway and surrender the final reward, recognition of doing so, and suffering of many trying to turn me from that path. I know deep down inside that no other path will be the right one for me to take, so I must take it anyway - despite the 'no'.