I am back to front again, sigh. Most people (apparently) weep and have fear over losing their 'I' self.
Me…? I couldn’t wait to get rid of the superficial shit that I didn't use anyway! I eagerly threw away my skin to enjoy my bone marrow!
It was as if I was needing to get rid of the useless bits - that everybody else thinks are essential - of MYSELF, as well as life. It is definitely not a secret that I don’t waste money/energy on 'rubbish' like a car, cell, washer, microwave, etc… but nor do I on my think-mind!
Most people cling to these pieces. I never really used that level in this current life. I seem to have predominantly lived from my middle minds - emotions and spiritual sensing - not the thinking mind. I thought of course, but did not live in that zone, or rely on it, or call it 'me'.
I suppose that is why it is easier for me to reach the inner core that for most - but more difficult to read Buddhism manuals teaching how to recognize the 'I' as empty. Not using the regular everyday 'I' to begin with, I find it hard to follow the reasoning given n some books.
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