Falling down again

Despite having taken great strides in the area of self improvement across the past 3-4 years, I seem to always find myself back where I began. If I climb up a mountain 10 meters, I seem to slip back to having made only 1-2 meters covered ground. Sometimes, things are not as they appear though…

Recently, I was applying Buddhist practices to try to prevent a major slip back, knowing I was going through some difficult times and I would be likely to fall backward. However, for the first time ever, I had difficulty in concentrating. I have not had a problem with meditative focus since beginning practice, due to already deeply concentrating for my writing, etc. I hastily ran to the notes in the ACI course on meditation to review, not having needed the instructions for dealing with 'agitated restless minds' previously.

Even this did not work, so I began to realize that it might not be my own problem. I must have been picking up someone else's worries, concerns, and panic. It was not mine, but my empathic connections.

From this, I was able to scan everyone I knew and detect the origin, in order to offer THEM relief - which in turn would relieve me! Usually, it is the pigeons I pick up on, but this time it was a human source, so easier to remedy.