METTA, KARUNA, AHIMSA. 3

Retaining such an attitude towards my enemy is difficult, but I must learn not to allow my rejection of their deeds to influence my attitude toward them. I must prevent the rejection turning personal, as it may lead to hatred. I have managed to prevent gross hatred, but the subtle still lingers, it seems. Recognizing my problem, I am at least able to try to solve it, if not successful as yet.

I find it hard not to deeply despise the deeds and their intentions, though I find it possible to forgive the causer, currently. This could so easily turn to a full hatred, and I do not want that to occur. I simply find it easier to turn away from those who do evil and try to focus on those I can help, such as the birds that visit my yard and the bugs that enter my home.

At the current time, I am trying to focus on recalling the fact that their attacks must be the result of my own karma. This takes the focus away from the wrongnesses done and the wrongdoers, and puts it into acceptance mode rather than total antagonism. It may not solve the arising problems, but it solves my attitude and prevents my turning bad within.